hmm..

things don't feel the same anymore...*sigh*

well maybe its me overthinking or whatever. but i just have to say how much i've missed the old days. those days when we used to talk 24/7. when we used to go for the same practice. when we get to discuss about the routine together. when you used to want me to say i miss you but i wouldnt say so.

ahhh....how much things have changed. this is the reason why i love reading back our old convo because it could make me smile so widely with those sweet messages :)
anyway, i hope you are alright. i can see you are purposely ignoring my ques. so since you dont wanna tell me abt it, i guess i shall just stop asking bout it. hope you are alright my dear!


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still couldnt decide one what course to take. i'm really not a decisive person. im so afraid that i will choose the wrong course.
i dont know am i feeling happy or sad to be able to leave home. to say the truth, im quite happy that i will be able to stay outside because sometimes i really get very fed up with this family. i know my parents love me alot....but i dont know how to say. i just dislike how my parents always fight. it seriously annoys me so much! :(
of course i am also afraid of leaving home. having to go to a place that i dont even know a single person (maybe a few la but they are from jan intake :/ ) having to live alone and meet new people. well i would love to meet new people. however, im afraid of going to kampar alone :( will i be able to meet good friends?? i know im not the kind of talkative person. im the kind of ppl who would only tell things if you ask. well, im trying to change this too :S *fingers crossed* about two more month till i leave.




i really love you but i dont know if i should let you go.